All it takes is one person

All it takes is one person

An "I hate you,"

A "you're fat,"

"You're ugly."

Those few words can, alone, be the demise of a person.

Those words are ammunition to a gun pointed at someone's temple

A hand pushing pills down a throat.

"I can do better than you"

Is what he told me.

I agreed.

He never touched my body

Never craved my touch

He was the king

And I was the lonely peasant.

I agreed.

The stretch marks on my tummy,

My big forehead

Actually,

Let me say five-head.

Who wants that?

Any takers?

I agreed.

No one looked at me

Not one Valentine

Not one Christmas under the mistletoe

No New Years kiss.

I was "one of the guys;"

When I longed to be touched,

To be a guys girl.

No one was beautiful

For me.

No one was happy

For me.

No one was me.

My body was an eternally sleeping vessel for my soul,

Even that wanted to escape me.

I was letting it.

My reflection staring back at me

But it wasn't my reflection

It was blackness.

A mass just taking up space.

That's what I was.

Not important.

Pills in one hand

Alcohol in the other.

Maybe not today

Tomorrow will do.

I agreed.

There's no soul in these eyes.

No life in this body.

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All it takes is one person

An "I love you,"

A "you're beautiful, baby,"

A "mommy I miss you."

All it takes is one person,

An "I do,"

A "forever,"

To take the pills out of your hands,

The gun from your head.

You think I'm beautiful?

So are you.

I agree wholeheartedly.

#poetry #selfimage #selfesteem