All it takes is one person
All it takes is one person
An "I hate you,"
A "you're fat,"
"You're ugly."
Those few words can, alone, be the demise of a person.
Those words are ammunition to a gun pointed at someone's temple
A hand pushing pills down a throat.
"I can do better than you"
Is what he told me.
I agreed.
He never touched my body
Never craved my touch
He was the king
And I was the lonely peasant.
I agreed.
The stretch marks on my tummy,
My big forehead
Actually,
Let me say five-head.
Who wants that?
Any takers?
I agreed.
No one looked at me
Not one Valentine
Not one Christmas under the mistletoe
No New Years kiss.
I was "one of the guys;"
When I longed to be touched,
To be a guys girl.
No one was beautiful
For me.
No one was happy
For me.
No one was me.
My body was an eternally sleeping vessel for my soul,
Even that wanted to escape me.
I was letting it.
My reflection staring back at me
But it wasn't my reflection
It was blackness.
A mass just taking up space.
That's what I was.
Not important.
Pills in one hand
Alcohol in the other.
Maybe not today
Tomorrow will do.
I agreed.
There's no soul in these eyes.
No life in this body.
All it takes is one person
An "I love you,"
A "you're beautiful, baby,"
A "mommy I miss you."
All it takes is one person,
An "I do,"
A "forever,"
To take the pills out of your hands,
The gun from your head.
You think I'm beautiful?
So are you.
I agree wholeheartedly.
